Dear future husband...

How are you doing? I am guessing you are doing okay and soon will do even better because you are going to meet me, right? Ah! I have so many questions for you, some grievances as well and so many stories to tell you. An entire lifetime is going to fall short, because I am going to chew your brains with my lame jokes and crazy plans. You really should buy some ear muffs right away, because you are so going to need them.

Okay jokes aside, I just wanted to tell you that I miss your presence in my life. I miss those cuddles we are going to share, those moments of laughter and those cute good morning kisses. I am missing them all already, and seriously you are taking forever to meet. Isn't it time for those dreams to come true?

You know there are times I sit on the window side and think of what you are like. Your name, your birthday, your sunsign. Will you be the one giving me hundreds of gifts everyday or the silent brooding kinds who will turn into a ball of mush when alone with me? Ah! Thoughts smoughts! I wonder what your voice will sound like or how will my name sound on your lips on normal days and intimate moments. Okay, stop me if I am gushing but seriously, I also think about your fashion sense. What if you are a bad dresser, oh god, that's going to really kill me, but don't worry, I will make sure you get a make over right away. Tee hee!

I wonder how it will feel when you hold me tight in your arms and sleep, and wake me up with your stubble brushing around my cheeks. I wonder if you will cook breakfast for me in bed and let me have lazy Sunday afternoons all to myself and my book. I wonder if you would like to travel the world and explore it with me. I wonder if you would want to jump off planes and dive into the deepest of oceans with me. There are so many questions I have, but I guess I will have to wait to find out what's it going to be.

You know I have this strong fancy for the world and share quotes by Gloria Steinman like ‘We are becoming the men we want to marry', but you can call me a hypocrite because I am still waiting for you. I pretend not to believe in fairy tales but secretly wish to leave my glass shoe at a ball so that you,  can find me soon. Are you going to?

They say, life is what happens when you are busy making other plans, well, so I am going to go and make plans which don't include you for now. But you know what, you have to come soon so that I can have my kiss on the top of the Eiffel tower and spend a night with you under a meteor shower, and watch the northern lights together. Hope you are packing your bags already.

I miss u
B with u soon

Your future wife

My 20 learning's at 30 !!

1. Love and accept yourself – fully

I truly believe if I had accepted the good and bad parts of myself at a younger age, I would have avoided many of the wrong decisions that I made in my life. Once you know who you really are inside, you begin to accept and love yourself fully.  Once you truly love yourself from the inside, you are able to love and accept others which provides a much higher probability of maintaining healthy relationships.

2. Feed your soul

Whatever your passion, or whatever you enjoy in life, make sure you feed your soul with what inspires you. If you are not sure what your passion is, try new things and find different activities until you find a few that give you that feeling of warmth, freedom and accomplishment inside.

3. Find a strong support network

For a long while, I tried to do everything in my life in my own power and with little help from others. I later realized having a strong support network of family and a few friends to share my life with is so rewarding. Finding and cultivating new relationships with others that will love and support you no matter what is so important to have in life.

4. Be authentic

During some of my harder times in life, I wore a pretty and smiling mask on my face no matter what I was going through. Only a few close people in my life knew what was really going on during my hardest trials. Once you begin to show others you have ups, downs and struggles in life just like everyone else, you become more trustworthy and sincere to others.

5. Live for you

A huge part of my life was taken up by taking care of everyone else which resulted in having no time for myself. My motives and reasons for doing things were wrong which in turn made my life much harder than it had to be. You cannot make everyone in your life happy – ever. Once you begin to make the best decisions for yourself instead of others, life gets easier.

6. Don’t compromise too much

I could have avoided that bad relationship if I would have figured this out when 2 years back. Compromise is required in any close relationship because we are all different and have different wants. Compromise is a good thing most of the time if the compromising is equal on both sides. Once you give up your wants and needs the majority of the time in any one relationship, it’s time to re-evaluate that relationship and decide if it really is healthy for you to be a part of it.

7. Travel more

This might be my biggest regret. I did travel some with my family when I was younger and it was wonderful. Money can buy you material things or memories. If I had thought about it this way before, I would have stopped making the meaningless purchases on material things and made sure I spent my money on at least one new destination each year. Traveling creates a sense of freedom and opens your eyes to the way others live in different parts of the world.

8. Worry less

I struggled with anxiety and lots of worry in my past. Worrying triggered my anxiety and it became an ugly part of who I was for a long while. Once you realise that worrying will not change your outcome, you begin to accept whatever is going to happen to you. You realise you will be okay no matter what. Once I stopped worrying so much about everything, my stress levels decreased immensely.

9. Stop Comparing

Sometimes I feel like I should be done with Facebook altogether, I did deactivated my account the whole last year ;) Seeing everyone getting married and having kids, and I was only like, me and Sam L ! Comparing your life to your best friend whom you know really well is one thing, but comparing your life to someone’s life on Facebook is detrimental. Once you realize that comparing your life to others does nothing but bring your own self worth down, you eventually stop. There will always be someone who is smarter, prettier or better off than me and I have accepted that. The moment I start comparing, I immediately change my thought pattern to what I am thankful for in my life ( Ma family and SAM J)  and keep moving forward.

10. Forget expectations

I had the ‘Disney + SRK’ syndrome growing up, you know the one that you will meet Prince Charming or some Raj or Rahul, get married and live happily ever after? Well Disney can pull it off because that is not real life and so does the movies. After all the experience I had in past 2 years, I just threw all of my expectations I placed upon others in the garbage. Once you realise you can still have dreams about your life but with dropping the expectations regarding other people, you really start to live your life in the moment. An expectation placed on someone else is actually just a premeditated resentment.

11. Live to work, not work to live

If I could do it all over again, I would have tried a myriad of different jobs when I was younger or researched a lot of different careers and chosen one that fit me best although I am quite happy that I did try hands at different fields when I was starting off but it was not known to me at that time that what I can be best at. Once you decide on a career path that you could really see yourself doing for the rest of your life, you then become someone in the workforce that truly lives to work because they love their career of choice. Many people are stuck in jobs they dislike just to garner a paycheck and that is not an ideal existence.

12. Save for the unexpected

This should be a no brainer but I did not do this when I until a year back Lwhen all of a sudden I was all alone, with a broken engagement or relationship and so many scars and tears in memories. I am now watching my parents moving towards their retirement and it has me thinking about all the things I need to do so that I am financially secure when I am older. Life will constantly be changing and probably continue to throw you unexpected curveballs so saving for upcoming hardships is a smart and sound decision.

13. Give back more

I recently have found in my life that I enjoy helping others. It gives me a very good feeling and nourishes my inner self. For some this could entail volunteering time with a charity, or taking special care of a close friend that is going through a hard time or helping animals. Giving a part of your time to do something that benefits you in no way, shape or form keeps you grounded and thankful for what you do have. It is so rewarding to forget about your problems in life by taking time to invest in someone else.  When you do something just out of the goodness of your heart and expect nothing at all in return, you surprisingly feel better about life no matter what is going on.

14. Forgive yourself and others

I lived the entire last 3 years almost staying bitter and angry about a few events that happened to me and for a while I truly believed it was 100% the other person’s fault or my destiny to go through this. Once I realised that holding unforgiveness towards others and myself for past mistakes was holding me back from happiness, I made a change. It took me a while to be willing to be happy but I was able to work through it and experience freedom. Once you are able to truly let go of past hurts made by yourself or others, you see life and love in a positive light.

15. Don’t waste too much time on negative people

Sometimes it is hard to get away from negative people if they are your co-workers or your family or if you are in relationship with someone like that. In some situations you do not have a choice but with actual friendships you can choose what type of friends you want to spend most of your time with. If you are on the end of a relationship where that person is a taker vs. a giver it’s time to set boundaries or slowly end the relationship. Once you begin to learn proper boundaries to set with people you would rather not have to deal with everyday, life becomes easier because you choose not to let that negative person affect you any longer.

16. No is a complete sentence

I have had a real hard time saying no. May b I am too sweet to everyone.  I want to say yes all the time and make everyone happy but that is impossible. If I do say no, many times I want to justify my no or explain the situation so the other person will feel better about my no. The older I get the more I realise that no really is a complete sentence and I do not have to justify every reason why I am not able to commit to an event or able do something for someone else. Once you are confident in your ‘no’, it’s easier to make decisions for yourself instead of others.

17. Think long and hard before you say ‘I do’

I am part of those broken by wrong relationship population of the Country who are now living in isolation, which is hard to admit but I now know what I want, desire and deserve in a life Partner. It is so easy to get caught up in the feelings and emotions of relationships generally although I consider myself to be very closed, honestly I have near to zero experience in being in a relationship and dealing with the other person. I tolerated all what was coming to me, thinking this is how it is and hoped that things would change for the better someday. For myself in the end, they only got worse. If you don’t see longevity in your current relationship or you have too many “if onlys” with that person, then you might not be with your ideal mate. It’s much easier to end things with someone before they get too serious. If you have reservations about certain things in your relationship or you want to change core aspects of the personality of your partner, it is probably best to move on.

18. Stop and admire the little things

This is so simplistic but we currently live in a world where everyone is connected to an electronic device or the internet and it is becoming harder and harder to unplug and just enjoy everything that makes life worth living. And as my TOD on FB today says… “Escape from life every once in a while to enjoy those small little things in life” I truly believe that we should stop to enjoy a sunrise or sunset every once in a while, sit under the stars on a night with few clouds. Stop and smell the flowers. Go visit the ocean or the mountains and admire nature. We live in a world where Ferris Bueller is so right – “Life moves pretty fast, if you don’t stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it.”

19. Stop caring what others think of you

I so wish I would have figured this one out much sooner. I was so concerned with what others thought of me that I often times responded or did things for others because I thought that is what they wanted to hear or what they wanted me to do. Once I realised that what others think of me is really none of my business I was able to live life with right motives instead of wrong ones. Once you are able to be yourself and forget caring what other people think about you, life gets better because the worry and the expectation of pleasing others is removed. The truth is it is impossible to please everyone, so you need to focus on yourself and just eat all chocolates all day lol.

20. Embrace Change

When I was younger I wanted things to be predictable, to be stable and for the most part to stay the same. It felt safer to think that my life will be pretty much the same through the years. When I was then confronted with numerous changes all at one time, I did not handle it well. I have since realised that the only thing I can count on in life is change. Once you are able to embrace change and know that life can take a variety of different turns, you are up for the challenge and better suited to accept whatever comes your way.

Celeb me ;) lol

Zindgi kis taraf ja rahi hai.. Kaise ye rang dikhla rahi hai

Mere dil bata aage hona hai kya....

I like people.. By default I guess I like 100% of people no matter what they do to me.. Ehhh

But good thing.. I don't compromise myself for that liking .. Very content that I keep moving on.. And flow through!

I love this "anyway" by mother Teresa.. On my mind today so I must share..!!

Random me :)

"Gamble everything for love, if you’re a true human being. If not, leave this gathering"

Kuch to b ulta is happening... something very opposite to my years long conditioning on love...
All the movies we see, all the songs we hear and all the things people tell us about love are the ones who give love a bad name, turning love into something it is not. When I constantly hear songs with lyrics that go something like this: 

“I’m nothing without you.”
“You make me whole.”
“You complete me.”
 “I’m dying without you…. bla bla bla.” 

And when constantly watching all happy ending wali mushy Bollywood movies ;) where the lead character is this sad, lost, lonely and very unhappy person who can’t be happy on his own but once he finds his “soul mate”, the “love of their life”, all of a sudden they come back to life,  no wonder you start to develop all kind of limiting beliefs about what love is...

How come anyone can make me feel whole when I was never incomplete in the first place? And how can anyone be the love of my life when I myself is the love of my life ;)

I doubt really if i need another person to complete me, I guess I only need someone with whom I can share my completeness.

Is my salvation gonna come from another man or woman?. Naah !!! And know why? Because no matter how much love “THE ONE” will project onto me and no matter how hard he will try to make me feel happy, whole and loved, if I haven’t found a way to love myself fully, I will not be able to experience true love. I will never be able to experience the love he want me to experience. I will keep going back to my original state of being and the sad part is that, consciously or not, I will drag him down with me :(

I'm kind of curious to know and discover myself cz the more I know and understand myself, the more i will be able to understand what life is all about, what love is all about and what I am all about. Only by knowing myself I can know others and only by loving myself I can love others.

Someone rightly said, i dunno who.. but i remember what.. "Love is not selective, just as the light of the sun is not selective. It does not make one person special. It is not exclusive. Exclusivity is not the love of God but the “love” of ego. However, the intensity with which true love is felt can vary. There may be one person who reflects your love back to you more clearly and more intensely than others, and if that person feels the same toward you, it can be said that you are in a love relationship with him or her. The bond that connects you with that person is the same bond that connects you with the person sitting next to you on a bus, or with a bird, a tree, a flower. Only the degree of intensity with which it is felt differs" 

There are many writers who said and wrote so well.. and made our lives easier... ;) see such a simplistic thought on love...!!!!

I know so little about love because I know so little about myself, about who I truly am and about what I'm really capable of being, doing and achieving.We go to the Moon, we go to Mars. We explore all corners of the Earth and we explore the Universe but we don’t seem to care too much about exploring our inner world, our internal Universe...

The day will come when I will take a better look at myself and all that I am and realize that everything I was searching for, all the love, all the wealth and all the happiness  I was so desperately seeking for was already within me.... And oh my God, what a beautiful day that will be 

Will taking the road less traveled, can take me there? ... Life's calling

I have this pic saved in ma blackberry from quite a few days... I look at it wonder and move to others.. finally it has caught up my attention and thoughts so much that I'm here with this pic..! this pic and then I heard of this line "“…it sounds like life is calling you to do something BIG and you haven’t picked up the phone.” " Really? I wanna write more about all the things that I personally needed to know , the things that catch up my curiosity and know wot, the more I write the more I learn and discover, life and myself and our connections with this universe.

I will stop writing the day I'll discover who I am and whats the purpose of my existence, or may be I'll continue writing even then, about the journey of ma life with a "before and after" comparison ;)

I have been listening a lot lately.. advises , orders, my  odds, life's odds... ! In life, people will try to convince you that what you feel in your heart is not what you should apply in your life and that to dream is to be naive. That you should look for safety and stability, always behaving and doing what everyone else is doing BUT it’s so important to stop for a little while, take  a few steps back and ask yourself: “What do I want? How do I want my life to unfold?”

I think why not try a change? If I'm feeling I'm being called to do something new, something different; if I'm hearing ma heart's calling me, begging me to do things I have never done before and explore worlds I have never explored before, this is the time to do it! actually why not?

After all, my heart, my soul, my intuition, my inner GPS… they are a lot wiser than I think and they know things that my mind does not. I wanna dare to trust their wisdom. Dare to take the road less traveled because that’s how I think I can find my purpose and calling in life. Taking the road less traveled will take me there. :)

Now I wanna learn to listen to my own inner voice, to do what I myself feel in my heart is right for me and not what the majority thinks I should do. I'm almost going to be 30, spent 30 years on this planet and if I'll keep following the crowd I guess I can go no further than the crowd.
Let's just don’t be afraid to let go off familiar places and familiar faces to explore new lands. Don’t be afraid to take the path less traveled and do things that nobody else dared to do before.
Lets find the courage to take risks. To get out of comfort zone and go the opposite direction from where everyone else is going. Simply because my heart is asking me too.

Awesome feeling to start with.. Lets start living Adi ! muwahhhh :*

When things go wrong....!!!

Simply motivating .. these eight things I would read over n again to regain my faith in life when everything seems to go wrong...!!!

1. PAIN IS PART OF GROWING.

Sometimes life closes doors because it’s time to move forward. And that’s a good thing because we often won’t move unless circumstances force us to. When times are tough, remind yourself that no pain comes without a purpose. Move on from what hurt you, but never forget what it taught you. Just because you’re struggling doesn’t mean you’re failing. Every great success requires some type of worthy struggle to get there. Good things take time. Stay patient and stay positive. Everything is going to come together; maybe not immediately, but eventually.

Remember that there are two kinds of pain: pain that hurts and pain that changes you. When you roll with life, instead of resisting it, both kinds help you grow.

2. EVERYTHING IN LIFE IS TEMPORARY.

Every time it rains, it stops raining. Every time you get hurt, you heal. After darkness there is always light – you are reminded of this every morning, but still you often forget, and instead choose to believe that the night will last forever. It won’t. Nothing lasts forever.

So if things are good right now, enjoy it. It won’t last forever. If things are bad, don’t worry because it won’t last forever either. Just because life isn’t easy at the moment, doesn’t mean you can’t laugh. Just because something is bothering you, doesn’t mean you can’t smile. Every moment gives you a new beginning and a new ending. You get a second chance, every second. You just have to take it and make the best of it.

3. WORRYING AND COMPLAINING CHANGES NOTHING.

Those who complain the most, accomplish the least. It’s always better to attempt to do something great and fail than to attempt to do nothing and succeed. It’s not over if you’ve lost; it’s over when you do nothing but complain about it. If you believe in something, keep trying. Don’t let the shadows of the past darken the doorstep of your future. Spending today complaining about yesterday won’t make tomorrow any brighter. Take action instead. Let what you’ve learned improve how you live. Make a change and never look back.

And regardless of what happens in the long run, remember that true happiness begins to arrive only when you stop complaining about your problems and you start being grateful for all the problems you don’t have.

4. YOUR SCARS ARE SYMBOLS OF YOUR STRENGTH.

Don’t ever be ashamed of the scars life has left you with. A scar means the hurt is over and the wound is closed. It means you conquered the pain, learned a lesson, grew stronger, and moved forward. A scar is the tattoo of a triumph to be proud of. Don’t allow your scars to hold you hostage. Don’t allow them to make you live your life in fear. You can’t make the scars in your life disappear, but you can change the way you see them. You can start seeing your scars as a sign of strength and not pain.

Someone once said, “The wound is the place where the Light enters you.” Nothing could be closer to the truth. Out of suffering have emerged the strongest souls; the most powerful characters in this great world are seared with scars. See your scars as a sign of “YES! I MADE IT! I survived and I have my scars to prove it! And nowI have a chance to grow even stronger.”

5. EVERY LITTLE STRUGGLE IS A STEP FORWARD.

In life, patience is not about waiting; it’s the ability to keep a good attitude while working hard on your dreams, knowing that the work is worth it. So if you’re going to try, put in the time and go all the way. Otherwise, there’s no point in starting. This could mean losing stability and comfort for a while, and maybe even your mind on occasion. It could mean not eating what, or sleeping where, you’re used to, for weeks on end. It could mean stretching your comfort zone so thin it gives you a nonstop case of the chills. It could mean sacrificing relationships and all that’s familiar. It could mean accepting ridicule from your peers. It could mean lots of time alone in solitude. Solitude, though, is the gift that makes great things possible. It gives you the space you need. Everything else is a test of your determination, of how much you really want it.

And if you want it, you’ll do it, despite failure and rejection and the odds. And every step will feel better than anything else you can imagine. You will realize that the struggle is not found on the path, it is the path. And it’s worth it. So if you’re going to try, go all the way. There’s no better feeling in the world… there’s no better feeling than knowing what it means to be ALIVE. 

6. OTHER PEOPLE’S NEGATIVITY IS NOT YOUR PROBLEM.

Be positive when negativity surrounds you. Smile when others try to bring you down. It’s an easy way to maintain your enthusiasm and focus. When other people treat you poorly, keep being you. Don’t ever let someone else’s bitterness change the person you are. You can’t take things too personally, even if it seems personal. Rarely do people do things because of you. They do things because of them.

Above all, don’t ever change just to impress someone who says you’re not good enough. Change because it makes you a better person and leads you to a brighter future. People are going to talk regardless of what you do or how well you do it. So worry about yourself before you worry about what others think. If you believe strongly in something, don’t be afraid to fight for it. Great strength comes from overcoming what others think is impossible.

All jokes aside, your life only comes around once. This is IT. So do what makes you happy and be with whoever makes you smile, often.

7. WHAT’S MEANT TO BE WILL EVENTUALLY, BE.

True strength comes when you have so much to cry and complain about, but you prefer to smile and appreciate your life instead. There are blessings hidden in every struggle you face, but you have to be willing to open your heart and mind to see them. You can’t force things to happen. You can only drive yourself crazy trying. At some point you have to let go and let what’s meant to be, BE.

In the end, loving your life is about trusting your intuition, taking chances, losing and finding happiness, cherishing the memories, and learning through experience. It’s a long-term journey. You have to stop worrying, wondering, and doubting every step of the way. Laugh at the confusion, live consciously in the moment, and enjoy your life as it unfolds. You might not end up exactly where you intended to go, but you will eventually arrive precisely where you need to be. 

8. THE BEST THING YOU CAN DO IS TO KEEP GOING.

Don’t be afraid to get back up – to try again, to love again, to live again, and to dream again. Don’t let a hard lesson harden your heart. Life’s best lessons are often learned at the worst times and from the worst mistakes. There will be times when it seems like everything that could possibly go wrong is going wrong. And you might feel like you will be stuck in this rut forever, but you won’t. When you feel like quitting, remember that sometimes things have to go very wrong before they can be right. Sometimes you have to go through the worst, to arrive at your best.

Yes, life is tough, but you are tougher. Find the strength to laugh every day. Find the courage to feel different, yet beautiful. Find it in your heart to make others smile too. Don’t stress over things you can’t change. Live simply. Love generously. Speak truthfully. Work diligently. And even if you fall short, keep going. Keep growing.

Is there any chance of my recreation?

I see the dark Clouds; the blurred imagination
Is there any chance of my recreation?

When I could walk, I went for sleep
I want to stand but now I even can’t breath

I want to shatter this wall, I need salvation
Is there any chance of my recreation?

The ways were ruined, I found me dead
I fall many times, but eradicate that threat

I am waiting for that flash to get a clear vision
Is there any chance of my recreation?

I have that glow I know, I have that shine
I can even cross horizon and can reach the divine

I need some path to spoil abomination
Is there any chance of my recreation?

'You've got to find what you love" - Steve Jobs

Some awesome lines by Jobs at Harvard :

Connecting the DOTS
You can't connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something — your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever.

Love and Loss
An awful tasting medicine, but I guess the patient needs it. Sometimes life hits you in the head with a brick. Don't lose faith. I'm convinced that the only thing that kept me going was that I loved what I did. You've got to find what you love. And that is as true for your work as it is for your lovers. Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven't found it yet, keep looking. Don't settle. As with all matters of the heart, you'll know when you find it. And, like any great relationship, it just gets better and better as the years roll on. So keep looking until you find it. Don't Settle.

 Death
If you live each day as if it was your last, someday you'll most certainly be right." It made an impression on me, and since then, for the past 33 years, I have looked in the mirror every morning and asked myself: "If today were the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today?" And whenever the answer has been "No" for too many days in a row, I know I need to change something.
No one wants to die. Even people who want to go to heaven don't want to die to get there. And yet death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it. And that is as it should be, because Death is very likely the single best invention of Life. It is Life's change agent. It clears out the old to make way for the new. Right now the new is you, but someday not too long from now, you will gradually become the old and be cleared away. Sorry to be so dramatic, but it is quite true.

Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of others' opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary

Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish.

- Jobs

Yet again... zindagi !!

kaise kaise khel khelti hai ye zindagi


jaane aaj sab kuch dohra rahi hai kyu ye zindagi

aane lage dil dhukhane wale log aaj phir ye zindagi

chot bahut gehri de rahi hai dil par ye zindagi



tuta tha dil...tuta tha aashiaana mera

aaj tez hawayon se bhikre pal bhi uda le jaa rahi hai ye zindagi

kuch rehne hi na diya mere paas isne

sab kuch cheeney jaa rahi hai ye zindagi

Challa.......

Wanderer, mad with love,

what do you search for?

Asking people far and wide,

where the one does reside

You roam the streets, end to end,

You Laugh, You Cry,

You urge evry passerby,

Hiding the hurt in your smile,

That you belonging to all the world,

Yet no one is yours to hold,

The colours of the rainbow

Converge in her eye,

Her voice is as pure

as the Bulbul's cry,

She walks in the fiery sun

But shadows cover her,

Through every blackened cloud you try,

To found the furtive white moonlight,

You even heard a gentle lilt,

In the soundless stirring of the wind,

You tell all those looking on

That your lover lives close by

Your gaze deceives itself you say,

Never pausing along your way,

Her scent is wrapped around your soul,

You wear it knowing every day

The one you search for desperately,

will come to love you someday.

TAKE ME AWAY

Take me away, to a secret place, to a sweetest shed, to a hiding place, to an intense pace


Take me away to Smile, to life, to those days, to get surprise
Take me away to the blue, to joy, to fly, to love to imply


Take me away to verve, to serve, to feel what I really deserve


Take me away to the world of your eye, to the Dream of your own,

your tears and to your sigh.

Take me away to him, to perfect habitat, to you, to God, to a peaceful and an immortal death

I Hate You Cancer

I hate you I hate you

Oh why can’t you see?
How you took my heart and broke it
When you took her from us!

She was my favorite Aunt you see
For only a short time
And then you came and took her
While she was in her prime

She was there to lend a hand
When you thought you had no one at all
But that was until the day
That YOU came to call !

She suffered for so long
And was always in pain
You took a beautiful woman
And made her die in vain.

And after years now again came across this devil,
When awaiting the news, they feared the worst and hoped for the best
Life was about to put him through an unforgettable test

I didn't sleep that night, that night was one of the worst
My baby's best friend was in pain
Baby is upset, so am I.

I pray to God that he will come out as a fighter and
win his life back.

The Salty Coffee

I am at home these days..., kind of low in energy and high in thinking about anything and everything important and not so important...huh! I came across a touching story which is actually worth reading... I can kind of relate to it and its a real beautiful story giving a vague idea of what "true love" can be..! though I still feel that there is a long way to go for me to understand exactly what loving someone truely means and I'll keep exploring it ma whole life this janam so that I will be into action next janam ;) living the better half character in d typical "true love" next janam :)

Most of us have attended Delhi ki marriages atleast once in our lifetime, I am a delhite , and I'm lucky to attend many so far :) Decently dressed sone sone munde, which you hardly see other wise,guys you don't really know how big turn on youbecome when dressed in smart formals especially in black for me :) the story started at one of the same kind of marriage in Delhi where there was a good stock of fabulously polished and painted beauties with the big brand tags on their limited clothes. Na I m not jealous nor do I hate such beauties till they are decent enough and know how to talk atleast in a resonably intellegent manner if required at times.

My heart always go towards the cutest of the delhi girls... I'm completely normal choo by saying this what I mean is all the beautiful ladies I have in my life, whom I connect with, are exceptionally cute, charming and wonderful human being.... may it be my best friend Alka, Parul or my Cousin Vidhi. I won't mention my mom here coz mummas to sabki great hoti hain yaar :) love u all mummas of the world who make this world an awesome place to born, grow and live.

So moving forward with my story, in one such party there was a very charming angelic girl [yes the ones I fall for and the one I know and believe that I also am ;) but that wasn't me. Its not my story guys ;) hold your horses and read me] . She was like so outstanding, many guys chasing after her, she was looking damn cute in a peach n chocolate brown lehnga with henna in her hands. There was a handsome guy, looked like te groom's friend but was kinda shy and standing in corner not interacting with much of the crowd tho seen him helping some old ladies getting on the stage ( where the bride n groom were sitting) several times. The girl did noticed him twice or thrice and have had a positive kind of impression. By that time the guy had allready fallen for her... She was moving all around talking to the crowd but the guy was standing and just watching her.At the end of the party, he invited her to have coffee with him, she was surprised, but due to being polite, she agreed.

They sat in a nice coffee shop, he was too nervous to say anything, she felt uncomfortable, she was feeling like let me go home.. and suddenly he asked the waiter: "Would you please give me some salt? I'd like to putit in my coffee."Everybody around stared at him, so strange! His face turned red, but, still, he put the salt in his coffee and drank it.
She asked him curiously: "Why you have this hobby?"He replied: "When I was a little boy, I was living near the sea, I liked playing in the sea, I could feel the tasteof the sea , just like the taste of the salty coffee. Now every time I have the salty coffee, I always think of mychildhood, think of my hometown, I miss my hometown so much, I miss my parents who are still living there".
While saying that tears filled his eyes. She was deeply touched.
That's his true feeling, from the bottom of his heart. A girl feels that the man who can tell out his homesickness, he must be a man who loves home, cares about home, has responsibility of home..
Then she also started to speak, spoke about her faraway hometown, her childhood, her family. That was a really nice talk, also a beautiful beginning of their story.
They continued to date. She found that actually he was the man who meets all her demands; he had tolerance,was kind hearted, warm and caring. He was such a good person but she almost missed him! Thanks to his salty coffee! Then the story was just like every beautiful love story, the princess married to the prince, then they were living the happy life...And, every time she made coffee for him, she put some salt in the coffee, as she knew that's the way he liked
it.
After 40 years, he passed away, left her a letter which said: "My dearest wife, please forgive me, forgive my whole life lie. This was the only lie I said to you -- The Salty Coffee. Remember the first time we dated? I was so nervous at that time, actually I wanted some sugar, but I said salt It was hard for me to change so I just went ahead. I never thought that could be the start of our communication and relation this way! I tried to tell you the truth many times in my life, but I was too afraid to do that, as I have promised not to lie to you for anything.. Now I'm dying, I afraid of nothing so I telling you the truth: I don't like the salty coffee, what a
strange bad taste..ehhhhh
But I have had the salty coffee for my whole life! Since I knew you and I never feel sorry for anything I do for you.Having you with me has been my biggest happiness for my whole life. If I can live for the second time, I would want to know you and have you for my whole life they same way, even though I have to drink the salty coffee again :) "
Her tears made the letter totally wet.

Since then she started drinking the coffee with salt and someday, her grandson asked her: what's the taste of salty coffee?
It's my life and it's very sweet. She replied.

Is is not an awesome story ?? :)

My piece of words :

Live and love! Get highly committed to life.., its just one life and so may dreamz n desires!!

God bless!!!

Letting go !!

To let go doesn't mean to stop caring;
It means I can't do it for someone else.
To let go is not to cut myself off...
It's the realization that I can't control another...
To let go is not to enable,
but to allow learning from natural consequences.
To let go is to admit powerlessness,
which means the outcome is not in my hands.
To let go is not to try and change or blame another,
I can only change myself.
To let go is not to care for, but to care about.
To let go is not to fix, but to be supportive.
To let go is not to judge,
but to allow another to be a human being.
To let go is not to be in the middle arranging all the outcomes,
but to allow others to affect their own outcomes.
To let go is not to be protective,
It is to permit another to face reality.
To let go is not to deny, but to accept.
To let go is not to scold, or argue,
but to search out my own shortcomings and correct them.
To let go is not to adjust everything to my desires,
but to take each day as it comes and cherish the moment.
To let go is not to criticize and regulate anyone,
but to try to become what I dream I can be.
To let go is not to regret the past,
but to grow and live for the future.
To let go is to fear less and love more!!!!

My perfect friend !!!!

Today I found a perfect friend,
Who knew everything I felt.
He knew my every weakness,
And the problems I've been dealt.
He understood my wonders,
And listened to my dreams.
He listened to how I felt about life and love,
And knew what it all means to me.
Not once did he interrupt me,Or tell me I was wrong.
He understood what I was going through,
And promised he'd stay long..
He came to me today...
To show that he cares...
Pulled me close and let me know...
How much he need me....
Holded my hand to pull me a bit nearer...
For a second I just saw in his eyes..
And realized that this perfect friend I found
Was nothing but my mirror...!!!

Have you ever been in love ?

Have you ever been in love?
Been in love where your heart races when you see them. When your heart ache when they are not there. You only yearn for their return.
Have you ever been in love?
Been in love when your head can only think about them. Every song reminds you of every special moment you've had with them.
Have you ever been in love?
Been in love where only your future is all that matters. You see them in your arms forever and ever.
Have you ever been in love?
Been in real love? I have ... the moment my heart fell for him.

Hope this helps u Adi !!!

Do not wait to strike till the iron is hot; but make it hot by striking.


Every bad situation will have something positive...
Even a stopped clock shows the right time twice a day!!


Don't let go of your dreams. If you have determination and belief in your dreams, you will succeed in spite of your desire to let go.


Difficulties in your life do not come to destroy you, but to help you realize your hidden potential….
Let difficulties know that you are difficult.



Motivation gets you started;
Habits keep you running.
Attitude decides your pace & values decide your destination.


I really do think that any deep crisis is an opportunity to make your life extraordinary in some way.


It is good to have money and the things that money can buy, but it is good too, to make sure we have not lost the things that money cannot buy.


Thought is the original source of all wealth, all success, all material gain, all great discoveries and inventions, and of all achievement.


Never expect things to happen.
Struggle and make them happen.
Never expect yourself to be given a good value.
Create a value of your own.



In the absence of clearly-defined goals, we become strangely loyal to performing daily trivia until ultimately we become enslaved by it

Never reject a day in your profession.
Good day gives us business, bad day gives us experience.



Failure is nature's plan to prepare you for great responsibilities



In the primitive societies, nobody has a Watch & everyone had Time.
But in the present society, nobody has Time, but everyone has a Watch


In the book of life, the page,
Yesterday is Over!
The page Future is Blank
&
The page Today is Being Written.
So write the best that you can
Because on this book…..
Eraser doesn’t work!

8 random things about me :-)

1. I love talking, but only online or on the phone.. Offline I don't talk much at times ;) even I don’t know why...

2. I am very conscious of the way I look while talking and laughing.. to the extent that you won't see me laughing too much, but just smiling :P

3.I am waiting for the winters to hit in. Before this, I was waiting for the rains..;) I love rains though but now I am waiting for the winters to hit

4. Dreams are equal to reality for me.. I dream 24 by 7 and hallucinate most of the times while talking and I am hoping people didn't realise this till they read this post.

5. I kind of love my job ! but ye dil maange much more!!! Gotta get all I want n deserve :)

6. I can't eat a lot of food in one go, but over a period of time, I think I'd outscore anyone :)

7. I am very velli today.. and hence this post !

8. Music, mom, family, photography, travelling, love, work, ice-creams, chocolates, water, friends are the essentials of my life, I live on these :)