Saturday, June 7, 2014

"Gamble everything for love, if you’re a true human being. If not, leave this gathering"

Kuch to b ulta is happening... something very opposite to my years long conditioning on love...
All the movies we see, all the songs we hear and all the things people tell us about love are the ones who give love a bad name, turning love into something it is not. When I constantly hear songs with lyrics that go something like this: 
“I’m nothing without you.”
“You make me whole.”
“You complete me.”
 “I’m dying without you…. bla bla bla.” 
And when constantly watching all happy ending wali mushy Bollywood movies ;) where the lead character is this sad, lost, lonely and very unhappy person who can’t be happy on his own but once he finds his “soul mate”, the “love of their life”, all of a sudden they come back to life,  no wonder you start to develop all kind of limiting beliefs about what love is...
How come anyone can make me feel whole when I was never incomplete in the first place? And how can anyone be the love of my life when I myself is the love of my life ;)
I doubt really if i need another person to complete me, I guess I only need someone with whom I can share my completeness.
Is my salvation gonna come from another man or woman?. Naah !!! And know why? Because no matter how much love “THE ONE” will project onto me and no matter how hard he will try to make me feel happy, whole and loved, if I haven’t found a way to love myself fully, I will not be able to experience true love. I will never be able to experience the love he want me to experience. I will keep going back to my original state of being and the sad part is that, consciously or not, I will drag him down with me :(
I'm kind of curious to know and discover myself cz the more I know and understand myself, the more i will be able to understand what life is all about, what love is all about and what I am all about. Only by knowing myself I can know others and only by loving myself I can love others.
Someone rightly said, i dunno who.. but i remember what.. "Love is not selective, just as the light of the sun is not selective. It does not make one person special. It is not exclusive. Exclusivity is not the love of God but the “love” of ego. However, the intensity with which true love is felt can vary. There may be one person who reflects your love back to you more clearly and more intensely than others, and if that person feels the same toward you, it can be said that you are in a love relationship with him or her. The bond that connects you with that person is the same bond that connects you with the person sitting next to you on a bus, or with a bird, a tree, a flower. Only the degree of intensity with which it is felt differs" 
There are many writers who said and wrote so well.. and made our lives easier... ;) see such a simplistic thought on love...!!!!

I know so little about love because I know so little about myself, about who I truly am and about what I'm really capable of being, doing and achieving.We go to the Moon, we go to Mars. We explore all corners of the Earth and we explore the Universe but we don’t seem to care too much about exploring our inner world, our internal Universe...
The day will come when I will take a better look at myself and all that I am and realize that everything I was searching for, all the love, all the wealth and all the happiness  I was so desperately seeking for was already within me.... And oh my God, what a beautiful day that will be :)